There is light at the horizon, even if I leave death letters everywhere!
Did you ever had the feeling you're at the wrong spot at the wrong time? Well I've got this feeling permanent sience the last three weeks. It is even this bad that I can't talk to people I love, the thought adopts my feelings, this is why everything looks like I'm goin down the road to New Zealand and I'm tryin to get a permanent citizenship, if I fit in! Cos this gives me the possabilty to life in Australia as well! Man, I REALLY WANNA FUCKIN DO IT! It all kicked off when one of my best mates called me last week and ask me if I wanna go on a trip New Zealand and I thought hell yeah, this is a sign. I just go, even if I feel bad for a few people round here, but I just can't drown in shit to give people the possabillity to see me twice a year. I think people who never lived in germany just can't imagine what a fuckin shithole it is, you're fuckin mistreated by the bloody goverment, this ponging assholes just riped me off, I had to pay 1100 $ to do a test to check if I'm able to drive a car and I've done fuckin nothin wrong! They just invited me and told me had to bring the money, counted!!! Bastards! I know this sounds rough, but I have to start my life now and to leave this shithole is the way I choose.
I keep you updated when I'll be around the kiwis, till then a song for the folks I leave behind.
"Lord, have mercy on my wicked soul. I wouldn't mistreat you baby, for my weight in gold. I said, Lord, have mercy on my wicked soul. You know I wouldn't mistreat nobody, baby, not for my weight in gold."
I never felt mistreated by you and I think I never will, sure it's very sad that you leaving, but I think the people who know you will understand the fact that you have to go, like I do. But in my case I know that I'll see you again and this one of the nicest moments in the future where I'm looking forward to!
My Darling, I wish you all the best in the world for your trip and for the mission to find the perfect life!
I hope we'll see each other as much as possible before you head off....